Lessons from Film

When I shoot with digital, I look for a flaw in the frame. When I shoot with film, I embrace the mistake...
— Singer-Songwriter Seal

I need to preface this post with a few points:

1. I LOVE digital photography and think there are some incredible benefits to shooting digital instead of film

2. I think both digital and film images can be beautiful.

3. I don't buy into what I call "inner circle mentality" that uses less popular artistic mediums to create a sense of superiority (i.e. "oh everyone is a photographer- I shoot film so I must be better than the masses").   


 

That being said, HUGE photography lessons can be learned through using film.  I have been going through a book by Photographer Chris Orwig called People Pictures ; it's a book filled with photo projects to challenge and grow any photographer.  My most recent project required the use of film (specifically 3 days of portraits with black and white film).  I have loved doing these projects because of how it is forcing me outside my comfort zone in photography.  My awesome second shooter friend Steven Wallace is a film-guru so he was able to give me some help with the film process and is now developing my black and white rolls for me.  I'll post some of those soon!

I have always loved my instant cameras (Fuji Instax, Polaroid 300, and the old Polaroid One Step camera), so I decided it was time to invest in some film through The Impossible Project.  If you aren't familiar with the Impossible Project, you should definitely check them out.  I say I had to invest in some film because the Polaroid 600 film is about $3-4 per image (so 8 images cost me about $28, although I found it cheaper on Amazon for $24).  YIKES! You could buy a 16GB memory card for a little more than the price of 16 Polaroid images.  But I knew that only having 8 shots would force me to think, be more intentional, and engage with subject and shot than I ever had before.  So for $4 a shot, I took some photos and made some mistakes.

 

I took my 8 Polaroid pictures while visiting one of my closest friends, Carrie Jo in Knoxville.  We shot a wedding together (hence the nose and glasses photos above!) and got to catch up on life/sit around on her couch with pizza and pajamas watching old movies.  We were out on her back porch and the light was just breaking through the clouds in the midst of a rainy day, so I grabbed my Polaroid camera.  She was drinking her signature french vanilla tea and I had my coffee, so it just seemed perfect to get a picture of her at that moment.  Above is the picture I got (made black and white).  I found out a few things from this shot: a.) You need to stand more than 2 feet away from your subject b.) it's good to read a manual if possible to find out if the flash can be turned off.  So it isn't the best picture ever, but to me it represents a lesson to be learned in imperfect photography.  It's figuring out a moment that is significant to you and capturing it.  So if I walked away from my time with Carrie Jo with just this picture of her I would be happy because it represents so much.  It reminds me of the comfort of our friendship, the ability to be totally ourselves in sweatpants and all, the joy of just being with someone who understands you, and how our journey as photographers is more about understanding what really matters and less about trying to be perfect.

This picture was taken with my Fuji Instax Wide frame camera at the farmer's market in Athens.  I love the colors and people at the farmer's market and it turns out open shade is the perfect lighting for my instant cameras. 

These photos were taken with the Polaroid 300 camera.  I love Athens and thought it would be a fun personal project to take images of favorite local places.  I learned that I didn't have as much control over the exposure as I wanted and this camera does not let you turn off the flash.  But it was a great experience for me to take time, compose my shot, and press a button knowing I wasn't going to take another shot of the same thing. 

I can't wait to get back the black and white Tri-X film from Steven to see how my father-in-law's 35mm Nikon camera held up.  His camera had a great 50mm 1.4 fixed lens, and I was forced to manually focus each shot.  Film causes me to slow down and take my time instead of shooting a million frames hoping one turns out.  I love the idea of taking lessons from film and applying them to digital photography, i.e. slowing down, composing my shot, trying different exposures, and not being addicted to seeing immediate results.  I also love the idea of embracing imperfections- and that is in all of life.  I talked with Carrie Jo about the idea of getting 8 shots per trip I go on.  So 8 total frames to capture it, making me choose what I want to remember most.  When I look at how many external hard drives I have, I get so excited at the idea of having 8 instant film pictures to frame or put in a book.  So what if 5 of them are a little too dark or too bright? That is so my life so it's only fitting that my photos reflect that.  I want to embrace what I get with what I got, and let go of perfection and the idea that more is always best.  Film is teaching me a lot so far.  On a random note- I just found out how to do double exposures on Polaroid film through this Youtube video- that is my next experiment!

Caroline + Andy

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Andy + Caroline Paczkowski.  Their love and friendship is so incredibly apparent to anyone who knows them, and I hope these pictures can show even a fraction of it.   I really have never known a more photogenic couple, and it wasn't because they love to model in front of the camera but because they are genuinely this affectionate and sweet and fun with each other.  When Andy saw Caroline for the first time he literally gasped at how beautiful she looked.  In that moment I wished I was a videographer to capture his reaction- but these pictures will have to do for now!

Caroline and Andy have a contagious joy about them.  They can be romantic and sweet with each other, and then two seconds later break out some dance moves.  Apparently at the rehearsal dinner they taught some of their family and friends how to "Dougie" (for those of you not familiar it's a song with some awesome moves to go along with it).  I love that they brought it out on their wedding day for me to photograph!!

 

Caroline and Andy wrote their own wedding vows (and included tissues at the entrance of the chapel)- and I'm pretty sure there was not a dry eye in that place by the end! I really was starting to tear up so much that I had to go get tissues at good time because it was a little out of control on my part (why I love wedding photography, ps).  A close family friend married them and read their favorite poem: "How do I Love Thee?" by Elizabeth Barrett Browning.  I happened to have memorized that poem in high school and have loved it ever since so it pulled on my heart strings big time.  My favorite parts are in the lines that talk about loving someone freely and purely and with passion.  And then to make it even more emotional Caroline and Andy wrote the most poetic and heartfelt vows to each other, each one tearing up while the other spoke.  I know they will treasure the video taken from their ceremony- even I want a copy!!!

The sky stayed clear until their ceremony began, and then the rain came down pretty hard.  But by the time we walked out of the chapel the rain slowed down to just a drizzle and on my way to the reception I saw a huge rainbow in the sky.  Such a good day.  You can see the tiny raindrops in the shot below with a lot of sun shining in the midst of it.

The reception was at the Foundry Inn and Spa near downtown Athens, and it's an awesome venue with an outside area filled with stringed lights and elegant indoor rooms.  Caroline and Andy are both wine connoisseurs with a love for great wine, so they used that wine theme in the reception table decor.  The centerpieces were wooden wine crates and table place cards from wine bottles and corks.  The best part is that Caroline and Andy both wrote each other letters and put them into a wine box with a really (expensive) fine wine and then nailed it shut to be opened on their 10th anniversary of marriage.  What an awesome idea.  I told them to get in touch with me in 10 years and I'd photograph the opening of that box:)

You guys just make me happy.  I am so glad I got to photograph your wedding and know that there are TONS more happy pictures for me to go through and for you to enjoy soon! A good friend of mine saw these pictures and said, "That looks like a couple I would want to be friends with..." and I really thought no truer words could be spoken about you guys.  Thanks for letting me see your passion and heart for each other and life and asking me to tell part of your story.  xoxo